It is 10pm...i am bored & starving but yet not in the mood to look for food. Some unpleasant feel inside me still persistent. Sense of guilt over something i said which could have hurt somebody..though I am not really sure of whether it did really hurt that somebody or not. Yet I don't dare to explore further by asking the person(s), whom probably hurt by what I said (though was not in a harsh manner)..as on 2nd thoughts, I could be just thinking over the matter out of its proportion. Huh...I am a confused being! I just have this "sixth" sense about people being hurt by what I say...especially those whom are close to me. Just can't sit still in peace if i don't get the clarification from that particular person.
Our beloved Prophet had said...."talk only when necessary". Yet we tend to talk over the board & be sorry later :(
Gosh the feeling of guilt & regret is just too deep and disturbing my routine at times...sometimes just too often.heh.
Oh Allah,only You are there for me to cling on my every hope & do'a. Please help me out of this & please guide me so that my words are wiser & not poisonous.
February 2, 2010
Telupid trip
ORIGINALLY POSTED ON JUNE 20th 2008
Very few outside Sabah would have ever heard about this place. Telupid is after all not so secluded as it sounds. Azniza & I took the chance of driving down from sandakan to there recently with a friend to visit another friend. Best part was, both of us were postcalls:)
After 2 hours drive (with average speed of 100-110km/H) on a very "exciting" uneven roads with full of surprises, we reached Telupid. A quiet, rather acceptably lively town. My friend in Telupid ( who has not left the town for the past 3 months due to work responsibility...huh,tough guy!) took us on a tour around telupid (took us less than 1/2 hour to complete it). Co-incidentally "tadau tagazo do keamatan" celebration month was officiated on the same day...but sad to say we missed the unduk ngadau..haha.
After some chit-chatting, we were on our way back on another gruelling drive,but with reduced speed(ari suda makin gelap lor...) We stopped by at a village named "Gum-Gum" (do pronounce it strictly in baku,yah!) for Maghrib. However I noted, lights in the mosque were running on generator & other parts of the village were not lighten up...roads have no lamp posts. Seems to be not an acute blackout...but a chronic, ever present one.
Well, this is the reality in sabah...there are still many parts of sabah with this situation. What has been done...Wallahu 'alam. What's going to be done...Wallahu 'alam. Probably might remain to be so 10 years down the line..unless we "the rakyat" do something.
Very few outside Sabah would have ever heard about this place. Telupid is after all not so secluded as it sounds. Azniza & I took the chance of driving down from sandakan to there recently with a friend to visit another friend. Best part was, both of us were postcalls:)
After 2 hours drive (with average speed of 100-110km/H) on a very "exciting" uneven roads with full of surprises, we reached Telupid. A quiet, rather acceptably lively town. My friend in Telupid ( who has not left the town for the past 3 months due to work responsibility...huh,tough guy!) took us on a tour around telupid (took us less than 1/2 hour to complete it). Co-incidentally "tadau tagazo do keamatan" celebration month was officiated on the same day...but sad to say we missed the unduk ngadau..haha.
After some chit-chatting, we were on our way back on another gruelling drive,but with reduced speed(ari suda makin gelap lor...) We stopped by at a village named "Gum-Gum" (do pronounce it strictly in baku,yah!) for Maghrib. However I noted, lights in the mosque were running on generator & other parts of the village were not lighten up...roads have no lamp posts. Seems to be not an acute blackout...but a chronic, ever present one.
Well, this is the reality in sabah...there are still many parts of sabah with this situation. What has been done...Wallahu 'alam. What's going to be done...Wallahu 'alam. Probably might remain to be so 10 years down the line..unless we "the rakyat" do something.
After 20 days...
originally posted on September 14, 2008
Our Induksi came to an end on the 28th of august...much to my sadness & despair. It was a total fun throughout the short but memorable course. We began with BTN, which was mostly packed with boring discussions & lectures (with exceptions to a very few) plus one-sided comments, baseless personal attacks & "great" attempts to "nurture" our minds & souls (though was almost futile towards me). However Induksi was hundred folds much better & beneficial.
It was held in our own sandakan nursing college, done 8-5 (though 4.30 is the latest we go home:), no unnecessary nite jobs & no wasteful malam mesra.
Positive notes : people's money saved, participants daily chores uninterupted, and with no doubt, the harmony & positive interaction was very well maintained and great friendship bond tied!
In the end: money saved (re-emphasized!), time saved, resources saved, "unhealthy business avoided", objective accomplished. Well done to JKNS.
Nevertheless, it is sad to hear that this may not be done anymore...so, maybe back to reverse of all the above regarding money, time & bla..bla..etc.
Our Induksi came to an end on the 28th of august...much to my sadness & despair. It was a total fun throughout the short but memorable course. We began with BTN, which was mostly packed with boring discussions & lectures (with exceptions to a very few) plus one-sided comments, baseless personal attacks & "great" attempts to "nurture" our minds & souls (though was almost futile towards me). However Induksi was hundred folds much better & beneficial.
It was held in our own sandakan nursing college, done 8-5 (though 4.30 is the latest we go home:), no unnecessary nite jobs & no wasteful malam mesra.
Positive notes : people's money saved, participants daily chores uninterupted, and with no doubt, the harmony & positive interaction was very well maintained and great friendship bond tied!
In the end: money saved (re-emphasized!), time saved, resources saved, "unhealthy business avoided", objective accomplished. Well done to JKNS.
Nevertheless, it is sad to hear that this may not be done anymore...so, maybe back to reverse of all the above regarding money, time & bla..bla..etc.
Pengembaraan ke Lahad Datu & Daerah Tungku
ORIGINALLY POSTED ON 14th SEPTEMBER 2008
Perjalanan pada pg sabtu, 12 Ramadhan bermula jam 9.30 pg. Sungguh nyaman suasana perjalanan dengan ditemani kehijauan bumi sabah yg kian memikat sanubari tiap yg memandang & menghayatinya...Maha Suci Allah.
To cut the story short, we spent a night there & went to Tungku & Felda Sahabat the next day. It is indeed encouraging to see my friends working in areas which are relatively remote, though has good accessibility.
Few matters for me to take home...we should always work for the betterment of mankind; try not to grumble if we are in hardship...there are lots more who are more troubled than us:) Khalifah to ourselves, to our family, to our ummah...Insya Allah.
Perjalanan pada pg sabtu, 12 Ramadhan bermula jam 9.30 pg. Sungguh nyaman suasana perjalanan dengan ditemani kehijauan bumi sabah yg kian memikat sanubari tiap yg memandang & menghayatinya...Maha Suci Allah.
To cut the story short, we spent a night there & went to Tungku & Felda Sahabat the next day. It is indeed encouraging to see my friends working in areas which are relatively remote, though has good accessibility.
Few matters for me to take home...we should always work for the betterment of mankind; try not to grumble if we are in hardship...there are lots more who are more troubled than us:) Khalifah to ourselves, to our family, to our ummah...Insya Allah.
Ramadhan ends...
ORIGINALLY POSTED ON 13TH OCTOBER 2008
This year was my 8th Ramadhan observed in Borneo...(not so long yet,i think:), 3rd time is Sabah but 1st in Sandakan. Nevertheless, it went as one of the most memorable thus far...
Most of iftor I had in our hospital surau, which was really great & happening. Seemed like a mini gathering wth friends & hosp staffs everyday! The food, undeniably more than we could ever expect; heavy meals are served daily, as every depts/wards/units take turn to sponsor daily.
My on calls were pretty bad, but no complaints as i had only 3 in total & the last one was on the ninth day of puasa :) hehe, did manage to make my friends "jelos".
The nights were fairly lively as there are quite a number of masjids in sandakan, so azan calls & recitals in solat were audible in many parts of the town. But one annoying matter was, people's ignorance regarding straightening of safs...really irritating when people make saf as they like!!!
My long standing hope of going out for sahur finally happened in sandakan...twice i went out wth my sandakan-mates (hakul,razi,afiq&razman) to njoy roti naan& tandoori in Hameed curry house.
But 1 question wic must keep all of us in a worrisome state...would our ibadah be accepted by The All-Mighty? Insya Allah...that is our utmost hope & may Allah allow us to meet & indulge into many Ramadhan to come.
This year was my 8th Ramadhan observed in Borneo...(not so long yet,i think:), 3rd time is Sabah but 1st in Sandakan. Nevertheless, it went as one of the most memorable thus far...
Most of iftor I had in our hospital surau, which was really great & happening. Seemed like a mini gathering wth friends & hosp staffs everyday! The food, undeniably more than we could ever expect; heavy meals are served daily, as every depts/wards/units take turn to sponsor daily.
My on calls were pretty bad, but no complaints as i had only 3 in total & the last one was on the ninth day of puasa :) hehe, did manage to make my friends "jelos".
The nights were fairly lively as there are quite a number of masjids in sandakan, so azan calls & recitals in solat were audible in many parts of the town. But one annoying matter was, people's ignorance regarding straightening of safs...really irritating when people make saf as they like!!!
My long standing hope of going out for sahur finally happened in sandakan...twice i went out wth my sandakan-mates (hakul,razi,afiq&razman) to njoy roti naan& tandoori in Hameed curry house.
But 1 question wic must keep all of us in a worrisome state...would our ibadah be accepted by The All-Mighty? Insya Allah...that is our utmost hope & may Allah allow us to meet & indulge into many Ramadhan to come.
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